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Mar. 20th, 2010 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shade184I haven't felt this awful in ages.
I don't like writing about depression. It makes me feel emo. I hate people who can't get over themselves, who act "depressed" because it's cool.
I hate the word "depression" as much as I hate "self-diagnosed", or "ADD/ADHD", if not more.
But I feel so depressed right now. Not suicidal "I hate the world it doesn't understand me I want to go slit my wrists and cry like a girl" depressed. It's not the things around me.
It's more like "I totally fucking feel inadequate for life and I don't deserve anything and (on that note) why the hell do I even bother talking to her it's not like I'll even be enough for me and (moving on) my life is stuck in a rut and I'm scared that it'll always be this way somebody help me"
*sits in a corner and huddles into a ball, looking as pathetic as he feels*
I hate being like this. It's pointless and achieves nothing.
.... but I still feel it...
I don't like writing about depression. It makes me feel emo. I hate people who can't get over themselves, who act "depressed" because it's cool.
I hate the word "depression" as much as I hate "self-diagnosed", or "ADD/ADHD", if not more.
But I feel so depressed right now. Not suicidal "I hate the world it doesn't understand me I want to go slit my wrists and cry like a girl" depressed. It's not the things around me.
It's more like "I totally fucking feel inadequate for life and I don't deserve anything and (on that note) why the hell do I even bother talking to her it's not like I'll even be enough for me and (moving on) my life is stuck in a rut and I'm scared that it'll always be this way somebody help me"
*sits in a corner and huddles into a ball, looking as pathetic as he feels*
I hate being like this. It's pointless and achieves nothing.
.... but I still feel it...