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shade184Lotta shit's been goin' down.
Main thing is that I've been sick for the last two weeks. Ear/nose/throat infection FTW. I haven't worked at all during this time, in favour of drowning in my own snot, and I'm getting pretty restless now that I'm feeling better again.
That aside, though, something's happening to the way I feel about myself. I don't feel like a child anymore. I feel like I should be out there with friends; drinking at bars, jamming in garages and lounge rooms, discussing politics and religion and music and sex and philosopy like mature adults. And this isn't so much of an "I wish I was" as an "I feel like I should be".
No idea what that's all about. I think it's something to do that I've started interacting with a lot of other people close to my age, first the other apprentices, and now a bunch of Brisbanites whom I know from Twitter. It's a strange feeling - normally I want to hang out with people whom I can listen to and help and recieve pseudo-validation from. Now I want to be with people my age, people with whom I can have new, different, exciting experiences with. I got a taste of this when I was rooming with Keegan at my boss Aaron's place, and-
(I never mentioned Keegan, did I?)
For my first two weeks working with Aaron, I stayed at his place, since the building site wasn't ready for me to move into. There's a granny flat out back of his place, and during that time I stayed with its current inhabitant. Keegan is a crazy Canadian biker metalhead who teaches music and loves beer. Aaron lived in Canada with his stepfather when he was young, and he and K grew up together.
Anyway, my point is that Keegan was a very different person to me. We got along splendidly, and it was fascinating to learn about him. His taste in music was especially intriguing. Whilst I'm still not a huge fan of metal, it was interesting listen to the different styles and learn about their origins. We would drink together, listen to music, and just shoot the breeze. It was also interesting to compare our different countries - both of us were amazed by just how much Australians and Canadians have in common, especially in terms of our general mindset and attitude.
This experience has got me wanting more. I can't wait to get out there, meet people, connect in different ways and broaden my horizon. At my work home in Petrie I have access to cheap and fast public transport (omg, I fucking love go cards, those things are brilliant), and through that I have comprehensive access to the better part of Brisbane. Soon I'll have my car (even more setbacks notwithstanding), and once my new phone and its lovely cheap plan arrives, I'll not only have the most powerful and versatile and deliciously moddable smartphone outside of Japan, but I'll also be able to actually call people without having to recharge my credit all the fucking time.
I have a solid, reliable job, I haven't had a negative thought about my body in ages, I have income, soon I'll have two more pieces of technology to help make my life easier, and I have such lovely, beautiful, amazing friends who are always there for me.
Fuck, I'm so happy and grateful right now.
Main thing is that I've been sick for the last two weeks. Ear/nose/throat infection FTW. I haven't worked at all during this time, in favour of drowning in my own snot, and I'm getting pretty restless now that I'm feeling better again.
That aside, though, something's happening to the way I feel about myself. I don't feel like a child anymore. I feel like I should be out there with friends; drinking at bars, jamming in garages and lounge rooms, discussing politics and religion and music and sex and philosopy like mature adults. And this isn't so much of an "I wish I was" as an "I feel like I should be".
No idea what that's all about. I think it's something to do that I've started interacting with a lot of other people close to my age, first the other apprentices, and now a bunch of Brisbanites whom I know from Twitter. It's a strange feeling - normally I want to hang out with people whom I can listen to and help and recieve pseudo-validation from. Now I want to be with people my age, people with whom I can have new, different, exciting experiences with. I got a taste of this when I was rooming with Keegan at my boss Aaron's place, and-
(I never mentioned Keegan, did I?)
For my first two weeks working with Aaron, I stayed at his place, since the building site wasn't ready for me to move into. There's a granny flat out back of his place, and during that time I stayed with its current inhabitant. Keegan is a crazy Canadian biker metalhead who teaches music and loves beer. Aaron lived in Canada with his stepfather when he was young, and he and K grew up together.
Anyway, my point is that Keegan was a very different person to me. We got along splendidly, and it was fascinating to learn about him. His taste in music was especially intriguing. Whilst I'm still not a huge fan of metal, it was interesting listen to the different styles and learn about their origins. We would drink together, listen to music, and just shoot the breeze. It was also interesting to compare our different countries - both of us were amazed by just how much Australians and Canadians have in common, especially in terms of our general mindset and attitude.
This experience has got me wanting more. I can't wait to get out there, meet people, connect in different ways and broaden my horizon. At my work home in Petrie I have access to cheap and fast public transport (omg, I fucking love go cards, those things are brilliant), and through that I have comprehensive access to the better part of Brisbane. Soon I'll have my car (even more setbacks notwithstanding), and once my new phone and its lovely cheap plan arrives, I'll not only have the most powerful and versatile and deliciously moddable smartphone outside of Japan, but I'll also be able to actually call people without having to recharge my credit all the fucking time.
I have a solid, reliable job, I haven't had a negative thought about my body in ages, I have income, soon I'll have two more pieces of technology to help make my life easier, and I have such lovely, beautiful, amazing friends who are always there for me.
Fuck, I'm so happy and grateful right now.