Anna

My temper nearly got the better of me tonight. Everything was niggling at me and wanted me to do this or that, and my brain just shut down from the sheer frustration. All I wanted to do was roar at everybody to shut up, maybe break a few walls, then go have a hot shower and sleep in my nice warm bed. Fortunately, I've calmed myself down a little.

Most of the time I have a crazy level of control over my emotions, except when lots of little things gang up on me. Then it just builds up until either I remove myself from the situation, or I snap and explode/panic/otherwise freak out.

I'm just about to leave for work now. A few minutes ago, Mum pulled me aside and pressed a couple of bags of those little Easter eggs into my hand. For some reason, that nearly brought me to tears. We don't even celebrate Easter, yet my mum gave me something that would help me feel a little better.

So now, I'm just quickly typing this out as the little boys go to the toilet before the trip. (Number one rule of taking young children on trips, haha.) I feel a lot better, now, and hopefully work will help me, too. Hard work always makes me feel better when I'm angry, and now that I'm getting used to this workload, I can actually start to refocus my negative emotions into energy for doing something constructive.

Bye, everyone. Love you all, and I'll see you when you get back. <3