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Mar. 6th, 2010 09:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shade184I'm scared to write, and I'm scared to draw. Why? I know for a fact that I'm scared to do it, but there's no legit reason to actually be scared.
All I have is my fear and my delusions (or not?) of inadequacy.
Wait - am I afraid of being adequate? I look at my friends' art and writing, and I get horrible feelings telling me that I'll never be anywhere as good as this.
So I did some writing today, for the first time in fucking years. Posted it on dA; hopefully I'll get some good concrit. It wasn't anything special, just a scene between some characters I threw together on the spot.There's no real story, just a scene.
By the end of it, I was having loads of fun, and my confidence had skyrocketed. But it plummeted again just before, when I tried to do some drawing. I'll have to write again tonight, to get my morale back up.
All I have is my fear and my delusions (or not?) of inadequacy.
Wait - am I afraid of being adequate? I look at my friends' art and writing, and I get horrible feelings telling me that I'll never be anywhere as good as this.
So I did some writing today, for the first time in fucking years. Posted it on dA; hopefully I'll get some good concrit. It wasn't anything special, just a scene between some characters I threw together on the spot.There's no real story, just a scene.
By the end of it, I was having loads of fun, and my confidence had skyrocketed. But it plummeted again just before, when I tried to do some drawing. I'll have to write again tonight, to get my morale back up.