Positive changes.
Jun. 20th, 2012 08:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shade184Been thinking a LOT about life and stuff, the things I want to do, and the shit holding me back. Not just engineering and other career-related stuff, but also why I haven't done so well in my efforts to stick to things like drawing and writing and music.
I've pretty much determined that my primary problem, right now, is my living situation. My family is kinda shitty, and they are holding me back in so many ways. I've given up on, or struggled with, a lot of things that I wouldn't have otherwise had as much trouble with. Therefore, my first priority is to move out. I can't start building up until I stop the tearing down, no? Yes, I could have built myself up with discipline and caring less, but I don't have the energy or confidence for that right now. Just need to get the fuck away.
So, what am I gonna do? Well, the first step is done! I got a text just this very evening, saying that my "driving experience documents" (aka my motherfucking logbook) has been APPROVED. Technically I can just go book a driving test as soon as my papers arrive in the mail! Might take me a little longer, though, since I do want to see if I can get assistance on my license. That would potentally save me a shitload of money. Now that I'm no longer a TAFE student, my co-ordinator's going to contact me about what to do next, so hopefully that will happen very soon.
After this license is acquired, I'm going to see what I need to do to enrol in uni. I may need to do a bridging course, but with my license that will actually be POSSIBLE. O_O It's probably too late to enrol for this semester, but I will probably be able to begin next year. I have a phone appointment on Friday with Someone From The Uni Who Knows About These Things, so that will be good.
Then I go looking for a motherfucking job.
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In other news, today I was especially frustrated by my inability to roll my Rs. Most people have problem with the actual roll. No, I can do that. I can make a clattering noise. My little brothers love it; they think it sounds like a machine gun. What I have trouble with the actual R sound - the noise I make is way too coarse.
Anyways, after some research, I figured out that the reason I have so much trouble rolling my Rs is because my front teeth jut out so much. (I have an overbite of almost a centimetre. It's as fucked-up as it sounds.) The angle of my teeth has messed with the shape of my mouth and stops me from being able to form the right sounds.
Yet another reminder that I definitely need to get braces as soon as I can afford them. When the time comes, I'm going to look up dentist schools; they're just as good but cost thousands less. Unless my job at that time has a dental plan. I've never heard of non-govt/military job that DOES, and I doubt I'll actually be in one, but that would still be pretty sweet.
I've pretty much determined that my primary problem, right now, is my living situation. My family is kinda shitty, and they are holding me back in so many ways. I've given up on, or struggled with, a lot of things that I wouldn't have otherwise had as much trouble with. Therefore, my first priority is to move out. I can't start building up until I stop the tearing down, no? Yes, I could have built myself up with discipline and caring less, but I don't have the energy or confidence for that right now. Just need to get the fuck away.
So, what am I gonna do? Well, the first step is done! I got a text just this very evening, saying that my "driving experience documents" (aka my motherfucking logbook) has been APPROVED. Technically I can just go book a driving test as soon as my papers arrive in the mail! Might take me a little longer, though, since I do want to see if I can get assistance on my license. That would potentally save me a shitload of money. Now that I'm no longer a TAFE student, my co-ordinator's going to contact me about what to do next, so hopefully that will happen very soon.
After this license is acquired, I'm going to see what I need to do to enrol in uni. I may need to do a bridging course, but with my license that will actually be POSSIBLE. O_O It's probably too late to enrol for this semester, but I will probably be able to begin next year. I have a phone appointment on Friday with Someone From The Uni Who Knows About These Things, so that will be good.
Then I go looking for a motherfucking job.
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In other news, today I was especially frustrated by my inability to roll my Rs. Most people have problem with the actual roll. No, I can do that. I can make a clattering noise. My little brothers love it; they think it sounds like a machine gun. What I have trouble with the actual R sound - the noise I make is way too coarse.
Anyways, after some research, I figured out that the reason I have so much trouble rolling my Rs is because my front teeth jut out so much. (I have an overbite of almost a centimetre. It's as fucked-up as it sounds.) The angle of my teeth has messed with the shape of my mouth and stops me from being able to form the right sounds.
Yet another reminder that I definitely need to get braces as soon as I can afford them. When the time comes, I'm going to look up dentist schools; they're just as good but cost thousands less. Unless my job at that time has a dental plan. I've never heard of non-govt/military job that DOES, and I doubt I'll actually be in one, but that would still be pretty sweet.