Blah blah fuckin' blah.

[shade184]

I haven't felt this awful in ages.

I don't like writing about depression. It makes me feel emo. I hate people who can't get over themselves, who act "depressed" because it's cool.


I hate the word "depression" as much as I hate "self-diagnosed", or "ADD/ADHD", if not more.

But I feel so depressed right now. Not suicidal "I hate the world it doesn't understand me I want to go slit my wrists and cry like a girl" depressed. It's not the things around me.


It's more like "I totally fucking feel inadequate for life and I don't deserve anything and (on that note) why the hell do I even bother talking to her it's not like I'll even be enough for me and (moving on) my life is stuck in a rut and I'm scared that it'll always be this way somebody help me"

*sits in a corner and huddles into a ball, looking as pathetic as he feels*


I hate being like this. It's pointless and achieves nothing.
.... but I still feel it...

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[fluffysilver.livejournal.com]

(Did you mean to make this private or just friends-only?)

*Snuggles*

[shade184.livejournal.com]

*Snuggles back*

Bah, it's not a big deal. You're my only watcher on here (my other one never reads my journals), and I trust you anyway.